We are back and the only way I can really describe how I am feeling is, off center. Is it the going away, being in vacation mode and then coming home? Is it a little too much time in a small confined space with family members and the inescapable subsequent brain melt? Is it hormonal? Am I pregnant? Am I starting the change of life? Do I have neurosis sarcoma (a made up disease courtesy of my college roommates and I)?
I don’t know.
I don’t know what it is but I am off.
The cruise was fun. Overstimulating, yes, but fun. A little long. 5 nights would have been better. But it was really nice to have a break from the daily grind. A break from doctors. And therapists. And all of the crud and appointments that come with our lives as we know it. A break from analyzing everything. Just out on the water. Out on the ocean. Enjoying the world in its natural habitat as God made it. The ocean was spectacular. And I never did get sea sick. The islands were spectacular. St. Maarten is one of my favorite places on earth. I’m pretty sure I was French in a previous life because whenever I’m in France or St. Maarten the French side it all feels so natural to me. Au natural, if you will.
Anyway, Rye and I have spent a ridiculous amount of time together recently. Too much, really. Starting tonight Don is taking over all evening Rye duties to give me a break. And I need it. Badly. I’m becoming a little weird from spending too much time with a now 13 year old. I mean, I love the kid more than life itself but enough already.
And for whatever reason I’ve had the lyrics of the Eminem ‘Recovery’ album rolling through my head for over a week now. I’m not sure what that’s all about but I can’t seem to come to peace with it. The album is dark and does not seem to have much to do with recovery. I wish I hadn’t listened to the whole thing. When I come to some resolve with that I’ll write more about it.
And while I was away I read a book about a woman that leaves her life, just walks away, and starts a new one. Interesting. The irony was she left her life for a simpler existence and then just ended up with all the same issues in her new life. Go figure.
And that’s it for now.
Out.
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Welcome back Meg!